Dreams & Delusions…

Posts tagged “Trauma

Fractured

Iridescent shards⁣
Of my past⁣
Stick in the callouses⁣
On the bottoms⁣
Of my soiled feet,⁣
I try so hard to step⁣
Gently, purposefully-⁣
Then brush the shards⁣
Away from my skin, ⁣
Pain persists⁣
And the microscopic⁣
Daggers still embed⁣
Their way into me,⁣
The bloody remnants⁣
Of fear⁣
Leave me raw,⁣
Restless and uncertain-⁣
Lost in me, ⁣
Again.⁣


Traumatized

I have been traumatized.
I have watched the ones I love
Slowly succumb to the madness
They always deny.
Deny,
As if it will give the trauma less weight.
Sometimes, I want to scream-
To shake their shoulders and remind them
That it’s okay to feel,
To be the broken selves that we have become,
To accept that things have been done
That were never
Okay,
To remember that there are people
Who can never be allowed back,
And that is okay.
Oh, but when they rip the mask away,
That is when I want to hold them,
To kiss away all the ugliness that has fused
With the hearts of those who long to forget.
I want to brush away those invisible tears,
To whisper, in a voice louder than the fears-
“You are now.
You are loved.
You are alive.
You are here.”

~Antanya


Blessed

Every time
I start to feel blessed,
A part of me
Is battening down,
Defensive…
Waiting for the disaster
To come and shatter
What’s left of my hope…
What would it be like,
To enjoy it without dismay?
Would I breathe, finally-
With a throat free
Of this rope?

~Antanya