Dreams & Delusions…

Posts tagged “Spirituality

Watercolor

You will always⁣
Find me⁣
Where the light⁣
Fades, melds⁣
Into dark…⁣
Autumnal soul-⁣
Forever diving⁣
Into the galaxies⁣
In my mind,⁣
In your heart…⁣
Watercolor emotion,⁣
Bleeding into black.


Every Time

I’m back trying to heal,

Divining the fiction

From the real,

And every time I delve

Into myself,

I find you,

A little deeper,

Closer,

Yet further

Away…

~Antanya


Violet Waves

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Open to the wonder
Floating smoothly on violet waves
Swim through not under
Letting my soul seek what it craves
Flowing where love grows
I seek the paths open to me
In fluid energy grace flows
Making my dreams come to be

~Antanya

Artist Credit


Cathedral

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I never felt spiritual
In the pews,
Only bewildered
And confused,
I don’t believe in a God
Who hates,
Bashes, filters, or berates.

I worship the Love and Peace
That makes the pain of life cease…
My prayers are heard
Deep in Earth,
This knowledge-
My sacrament since birth.

The light through the trees,
Humming in vibration,
Like swarms of bees…
I complete my withdrawal
From Man’s church,
Into my Redwood Cathedral.

~Antanya


Harmonizing

Stop judging the journey-
To appreciate the assurance
Of a euphoric epiphany-
Our vibrant voices
In chaotic chorus-
A spiritual symphony…

~Antanya


Soul Sex

Cold caress-
Chilling my arms

Shivers slithering-
Down my spine

Warmth wrapping-
Around my core

Torturous tingles-
Between my hips

Spirals slipping-
Circling my toes

Gliding grasps-
Gripping my thighs

Salacious slaps-
Striking my ass

Sliding strokes-
Under my soul

~Antanya


I’m Here

You keep saying you’re alone,
Even while I huddle to your side…
The want of you creates a low moan,
Pulled by your tide, from the inside…
I don’t know how to show you-
You are not beneath me,
I’m here beside you.
My soul cries-
Love, open your eyes.

~Antanya


On Love/Passion

It’s only real if it frightens you…

Natural Energy Convergence

Natural Energy Convergence- by Antanya

~Antanya


Whole

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There is a place,
A time,
Where I feel
Mind meld
With heart,
Body vibrates, frequency of soul,
Unbroken, unspoiled, whole…
To feel this, and nothing else…
The ultimate goal!

~Antanya

This could also be titled, “Why I Hike”, but I think that’s a bit less interesting. 😉  Photo taken by me, on my last hiking trip to the Trinity Alps in Northern California.


Seers and Doers

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To be a seer
Is a burden,
In a world of doers…

They turn from
My knowing smile
With awkward, averted eyes
And nervous, fretful laughs…

Why is it so strange
To recognize souls,
To see universes in eyes?
Why does it make you uncomfortable
That I hear more than you say,
And see more than you do?
Are you worried you won’t be good enough
When you can’t hide behind what you say is true?
Don’t you want someone to know the real you?
I know, I do…

~Antanya

Charles Swinburne Seer Quote


Unchained

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The ones who chained me
And I’m not tame,
But can you blame me?

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These bonds have chafed me,
My arms are weakened and bruised,
But I won’t let my soul be used.

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I feel my strength coming back to me,
In love and wisdom, flowing free…

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My sword still bright,
Glinting in starlight-
I find my mark,
Dancing, Slicing, Stabbing
Through the dark…

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~Antanya


Mother

I’m not sorry.
I don’t believe the way you taught.  
Don’t plead, don’t try to convince me,
Your shock is lost on me, for naught…
For I am me,
I have my own eyes to see…
And we see the world differently.
I don’t resent your choice,
Though I won’t believe the same…
You helped me find my voice,
Now let ME define my name.

~Antanya


Celestial Love

New galaxies
Are forming
In my universe,
Celestial clouds of wonder-    
…And in my awe,
I’m inspired to action, 
To live, to love
The beauty within,
Let me stay hidden
In your beautiful heart
Until you see,           
Until I sink in…
Until we are whole,
One heart-
One soul.

~Antanya


Convergence

We keep circling,
Like Vultures,
Ravens,
Dragons…
We never swoop too near,
Like intimacy is our greatest fear… 
What would happen
If we touched?                                   
If our feathers softly brushed,
Like the softness of a lover’s touch…   
If our talons intertwined,
Like hands locked with passion…
If our scales collided,
Like energetic bodies or stars…
Would we be satisfied?
I think I would find another way
To explore you, past what you say…
I wonder how deep you would dive
To practice the love, to keep us alive…
I need your heart impossibly near,
Our bond can eradicate the fear…   
If we let ourselves love and feel,
I know we can find a way to heal,
But, we need to believe WE are real…

~Antanya


Star Soul

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I’ve been in the dark so long,
I’ve grown accustomed to this-
But, this is no ordinary abyss…
My night vision sharpened,
I see more than black here,
My vision no longer veiled by fear…

Violet, indigo, and deep green
Swirl in the endless dense fog
Within…  My dark is not empty.
I’ve wandered for what seems
Like an eternity, I don’t remember
Beginning, or ever being aware
Of an end, it just is…  I just am.

In my wanderings, I found
The synergistic bond within,
Where darkness and light
Are no longer opposite…
Where they run parallel,
Twisting, flowing like water…
Intertwining in double-helixes,
In intricate, infinite knots…

For within me, there is also
A well of stars and molten gold.
A pool of the purest source,
I’m drawn into it’s healing force…
An awareness washes over me,
This is the love I was created to be…

I’ll dip my fingers in liquid light,
And dance, slinging luminescence
Through this dark, until you see me
Until I see you, feel you, heal you…
And the smile in your heart heals me, too…

Do not fear the duality in your soul,
It’s this very struggle which keeps you whole.
We thrive in darkness, as well as light,
We need both, to remember what’s right.
I’ll hold you within, ’til the dawn breaks bright,
Loving and healing you through this long night…

~Antanya

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