You think I could forget you,
But that has never been true…
Love won’t let me ever
Lose the memory of you.
I simply have no place
Asking you for anything,
I may have left only a trace,
But, to me, it was everything.
Please, don’t ask me to
Wipe my mind clear of you,
If you, my love, only knew,
How impossible that would be, to do.
Could I be- more than a memory,
While I’m still alive?
More than a blur- in your periphery,
Live for more, than just to survive?
‘Cause I have this urge to howl
Every night at the moon,
Long to soothe away your scowl,
If not now, then- Soon.
I’m trying to speak- To find my voice,
To sing again, pure and true,
Our tale of circumstance and choice,
To remind you- I. Love.You.
Laying in the dark-
I can feel you reaching,
Your warmth caressing,
Sharing the same space,
Our place we have made-
In the midnight dark,
My soul longs,
And my heart aches-
Still torn apart.
Suffering still silently
When words won’t work
Tears tear through thoughts
Unheard, undisclosed, unknown
When words won’t work…
Why are we weak,
When we want more than
Why is the need for depth
Met with such shallow opposition?
Why is substance sappy,
Why is idealism idiotic,
I don’t want to live in a world
Where these questions ring true,
If you agree with this nonsense,
I have nothing for you.
I have been traumatized.
I have watched the ones I love
Slowly succumb to the madness
They always deny.
As if it will give the trauma less weight.
Sometimes, I want to scream-
To shake their shoulders and remind them
That it’s okay to feel,
To be the broken selves that we have become,
To accept that things have been done
That were never
To remember that there are people
Who can never be allowed back,
And that is okay.
Oh, but when they rip the mask away,
That is when I want to hold them,
To kiss away all the ugliness that has fused
With the hearts of those who long to forget.
I want to brush away those invisible tears,
To whisper, in a voice louder than the fears-
“You are now.
You are loved.
You are alive.
You are here.”
If I knew it would take me closer,
I’d sleep and dream of you forever.
If I knew you cared, I could believe,
That Love in your heart is for me.