Dreams & Delusions…

Posts tagged “Honesty

If You Agree

​Why are we weak,

When we want more than
Physical attraction?
Why is the need for depth
Met with such shallow opposition?
Why is substance sappy,
Creativity cliche’,
Beauty blaze’?
Why is idealism idiotic,
Philosophy powerless,
Love lamented?
I don’t want to live in a world
Where these questions ring true,
If you agree with this nonsense,
I have nothing for you.

~Antanya


Slight

Light is not the answer.
Dark is not the cancer.
“It is I that I fight.”
Day or Night
Does not define
Wrong or Right…
Forever on the line.
Good is dark,
Evil is light
Gaze is sharp
Smile is slight…

~Antanya


You Understand?

Yeah, it’s me
It’s you, too.
I don’t know
Why you act like someone else,
When all I want is you.
You tell me you understand,
I can’t help but doubt,
When you won’t touch my hand,
Or even hear me out…

~Antanya


It

You said I wasn’t worth it…
He told me to stop talking about it.
I can’t stop thinking about it.
They say you’re not worth it.
I don’t believe it.
Do they say I’m not worth it?
Do you believe it?
It hurts.
This it…

~Antanya


Conundrum

I keep trying
To live in the present,
To be satisfied
With what I hold-

I’m still dying
To be more than content,
To feel gratified,
To not feel cold-

But the simple truth is…
I can’t tell my heart no,
…And since I know this,
I can’t let go…

Why would I want to?
My most beautiful dreams
Have always been of you…

~Antanya


Suffocated, Stifled, Silent

I feel suffocated by my own mind.
I want to tell you how I’m feeling,
But, I’m lost in confusion…
I don’t know
Which thoughts to express,
And which I need to discard.
So, I feel choked out, I stay silent.
I tell myself I don’t need to tell you,
But, the need for you becomes more violent.
I don’t want to cause you any more pain,
So, maybe it’s better if I stay quiet.
Even when it kills me,
Maybe, especially then…

~Antanya