Dreams & Delusions…

Posts tagged “Fear

Stoic Storm

Breathe,
Don’t react,
Just breathe…
Don’t scream
Or struggle,
Or he won’t stop.
Let him get bored…
Be boring,
Stoic.
Breathe,
Don’t react,
Just breathe…
Don’t say how
You feel
Or he will
Scream again,
Don’t communicate
So you can have
Peace.
Breathe,
Don’t react,
Just breathe…
You can’t change
The choices she makes,
Tell her you’re worried,
But not where he can hear…
Breathe,
Don’t react,
Just breathe…
He will think
You’re weak,
So just take it,
It will be over soon.
He will say it was
Nothing.
Breathe,
Don’t react,
Just breathe…
And sometimes,
You remember
Harsh voices,
Unwanted hands,
Threats and violence.
Breathe,
Don’t react,
Just breathe…
And you scrape
Your pieces into a pile,
Breathe…
Pick them up
And hold them to your chest…
Breathe…
Mourn for the girl
Who used to be,
The one who hides
Within you still…
Breathe…
Love,
Heal,
Remember,
And Breathe…
Don’t react,
Just breathe…

~Antanya


If You Agree

​Why are we weak,

When we want more than
Physical attraction?
Why is the need for depth
Met with such shallow opposition?
Why is substance sappy,
Creativity cliche’,
Beauty blaze’?
Why is idealism idiotic,
Philosophy powerless,
Love lamented?
I don’t want to live in a world
Where these questions ring true,
If you agree with this nonsense,
I have nothing for you.

~Antanya


Pretending

I pretend
That I am afraid
To make this real,
But, in my heart it is…
Maybe I’m not pretending…

~Antanya


On Love/Passion

It’s only real if it frightens you…

Natural Energy Convergence

Natural Energy Convergence- by Antanya

~Antanya


Convergence

We keep circling,
Like Vultures,
Ravens,
Dragons…
We never swoop too near,
Like intimacy is our greatest fear… 
What would happen
If we touched?                                   
If our feathers softly brushed,
Like the softness of a lover’s touch…   
If our talons intertwined,
Like hands locked with passion…
If our scales collided,
Like energetic bodies or stars…
Would we be satisfied?
I think I would find another way
To explore you, past what you say…
I wonder how deep you would dive
To practice the love, to keep us alive…
I need your heart impossibly near,
Our bond can eradicate the fear…   
If we let ourselves love and feel,
I know we can find a way to heal,
But, we need to believe WE are real…

~Antanya