Dreams & Delusions…

Posts tagged “Delving deeper

Stoic Storm

Breathe,
Don’t react,
Just breathe…
Don’t scream
Or struggle,
Or he won’t stop.
Let him get bored…
Be boring,
Stoic.
Breathe,
Don’t react,
Just breathe…
Don’t say how
You feel
Or he will
Scream again,
Don’t communicate
So you can have
Peace.
Breathe,
Don’t react,
Just breathe…
You can’t change
The choices she makes,
Tell her you’re worried,
But not where he can hear…
Breathe,
Don’t react,
Just breathe…
He will think
You’re weak,
So just take it,
It will be over soon.
He will say it was
Nothing.
Breathe,
Don’t react,
Just breathe…
And sometimes,
You remember
Harsh voices,
Unwanted hands,
Threats and violence.
Breathe,
Don’t react,
Just breathe…
And you scrape
Your pieces into a pile,
Breathe…
Pick them up
And hold them to your chest…
Breathe…
Mourn for the girl
Who used to be,
The one who hides
Within you still…
Breathe…
Love,
Heal,
Remember,
And Breathe…
Don’t react,
Just breathe…

~Antanya


You Want to Know?

I still remember
When I first realized
I had let you in…
It scared me
How quickly you broke in.
I fell in love with your determination,
And I hoped that would stay,
That you would be the one
To see me,
The real me,
not the me everyone knows…
The parts of me that scream,
That struggle for freedom,
Even as I clamp them back shut…
But, you lost interest,
and I’m still lost.
Some people say they want in,
But, aren’t willing to pay the cost.
Let me see you,
If you want to know the truth.
I’ll show you mine,
After you cross that line.
Anything else,
Is wasting our time…

~Antanya