Complex Paradox

When you feel so far,
When your words
Don’t seem real
When your glance slides away,
I feel small and unremarkable,
Disappointing and empty.

When you are not here,
When the dark
Feels so deep,
When I feel so much I can’t say,
I long to show you and be stripped
Of this panic,
This need and desire…
To be swept away.

I try to focus
On my life,
On everything I have
And am grateful for,
But, you are always
Distracting in my periphery…
Endlessly addictive and sensual,
Teasing treaturously.

Your distance is a paradox,
Leaves me in wonderment,
Of an adoration so complex…

~Antanya

December 18, 2019 | Categories: Musings, Photography, Poetry, Thoughts | Tags: Addiction, adoration, Always, Being Grateful, Close to my Heart, Closeness, Communication, Complication, Connection, Darkness, Deep Within, Desire, Distance, Emotion, Energy, Heart and Soul, Missing You, Mood, paradox, Soul-deep, Thinking of You | Leave a comment