Dreams & Delusions…

Posts tagged “Authenticity

Every Time

I’m back trying to heal,

Divining the fiction

From the real,

And every time I delve

Into myself,

I find you,

A little deeper,

Closer,

Yet further

Away…

~Antanya


Internal Dialogue

We all say-

“I love too hard”

“I fell too hard”

“I’m too sensitive”

“Too intense”

“Too emotional”

“Too damaged”

“Too dramatic”

“Too different”

“Too anxious”

“Too timid”

“Too bold”

When what we mean is-

“I am willing to sacrifice for love”

“I believed in them”

“I have a strong intuition”

“I do not hide from emotion”

“I am willing to express emotion”

“I have been hurt, I know how to heal”

“I feel intensely”

“I know who I am”

“I desire safety”

“I dislike too much attention”

“I am not afraid to express myself”

When will we stop feeling “too”,

And start feeling “enough”…?

~Antanya


If You Agree

​Why are we weak,

When we want more than
Physical attraction?
Why is the need for depth
Met with such shallow opposition?
Why is substance sappy,
Creativity cliche’,
Beauty blaze’?
Why is idealism idiotic,
Philosophy powerless,
Love lamented?
I don’t want to live in a world
Where these questions ring true,
If you agree with this nonsense,
I have nothing for you.

~Antanya


Am I?

The sweet smile
That melts to sardonic smirk,
The light laughter
That heals the hurt…
The warm arms
That slip past,
The slow feeling
Speeding fast…
The deep, resonating breath
Where there was no air,
The smiling light of death
Tangled in your hair…

~Antanya