Dreams & Delusions…

Posts tagged “Anger

Stoic Storm

Breathe,
Don’t react,
Just breathe…
Don’t scream
Or struggle,
Or he won’t stop.
Let him get bored…
Be boring,
Stoic.
Breathe,
Don’t react,
Just breathe…
Don’t say how
You feel
Or he will
Scream again,
Don’t communicate
So you can have
Peace.
Breathe,
Don’t react,
Just breathe…
You can’t change
The choices she makes,
Tell her you’re worried,
But not where he can hear…
Breathe,
Don’t react,
Just breathe…
He will think
You’re weak,
So just take it,
It will be over soon.
He will say it was
Nothing.
Breathe,
Don’t react,
Just breathe…
And sometimes,
You remember
Harsh voices,
Unwanted hands,
Threats and violence.
Breathe,
Don’t react,
Just breathe…
And you scrape
Your pieces into a pile,
Breathe…
Pick them up
And hold them to your chest…
Breathe…
Mourn for the girl
Who used to be,
The one who hides
Within you still…
Breathe…
Love,
Heal,
Remember,
And Breathe…
Don’t react,
Just breathe…

~Antanya


Cunt

Do not mistake
My calculation
For hesitation…
I will still take out
Your execution in
Post-frustration.
Personified insanity,
You think you should
Fuck with me?
My family?
Keep pushing,
You’ll see-
Just how destructive I can be.

~Antanya

Someone has been manipulating my family, and I’m sick of the bullshit.  I’m trying to vent in a constructive way…


Why…?

It seems when I come together,
The world around me falls apart…

Why can’t I be whole
Without breaking my heart?

Why does the Universe test me
Just when I become steady?

Why must the intensity of the moment
Force me to remain dormant?

Why does anger still consume me
To the point of insanity?

Why are some people amused
With how innocents are abused?

Why does the shroud confuse me
When I finally gain clarity?

When I scream inwardly for silence,
Why am I always met with violence?

~Antanya


Twisted

I feel like I am being held
By my ankles and wrists,
Pulled tight, starting to twist…
Empathy binds my feet,
Vengeance grips my wrists.
I’m not wrung yet,
Although pain is setting in…
No tears or screams, yet…
I know there is much
Worse to come.

~Antanya