Worth Their Weight
I remember
The raw pain
And the emptiness
That stretched along
The years…
I used to wish
I had never known you,
Though now
I am grateful
You found a way,
To show me
I’m not alone…
Gave me a love
To curl into
When everything else
Falls away.
I would rather have this
Passion and longing,
Darkness and light
Intertwined-
Than the absence,
The vacuous abyss…
The substance to crave
In the emptiness of
This fucked up world,
Companionship and love
Are worth
Their weight in pain.
Everything I Can’t Say
Darkness,
Our rise,
And our downfall.
How many times
Have we met here?
Whispered,
Screamed,
Touched,
Held…
You don’t want to stay,
And I don’t blame you.
My heart still reaches for you,
I think it always will,
You were always
There for me
In the dark…
I will always wonder
Why we keep ending up
Here,
When all I feel
Is the empty,
The longing,
Stretching forever,
And your back
Walking away…
I feel-
Left with nothing,
And everything
I can’t say…
~Antanya
Too Much
I never mean to
Drag you down with me,
I don’t want to trouble you
Or to be too painful to hold,
But intention is not reality,
And we don’t always succeed
In doing as we say.
I’m sorry that I am
Boring
Selfish
Annoying
Short-sighted
Neurotic
Anxious,
I’m sorry
I
Am
Too
Much…
~Antanya