Dreams & Delusions…

Archive for June, 2019

Grateful

It’s funny.

You can love your life

And all the people in it,

And still feel hurt and sad.

I am grateful for all

I have, all I’ve felt,

And all there is to come.

Every experience

Is an opportunity

To learn, to heal,

To love, to feel…

~Antanya


Delusion/Clarity

I love myself,

And I don’t feel

Lonely…

I start to feel

Like I can function,

Like I have healed…

Then my subconscious

Sabotages me.

I dream all sorts

Of strange and mesmerizing

Dreams,

And they are all about you…

When I wake,

I am devastated.

I do not sob and whimper

Like I used to,

But my heart aches,

My head hurts,

My body throbs…

Like the day you told me

You did not love me,

That I was a stranger,

When I thought…

I thought you,

You were the only one who saw

Me…

I love myself,

And I don’t feel

Lonely…

I miss you

And the delusion

That you loved me.

~Antanya