Dreams & Delusions…

Archive for March, 2016

Fucking Wednesday.

Watched,
Silently shamed
By such innocent eyes-
Taught,
Guided, reigned
Disguised as spies-
Glittering,
Shining, cracked
Clean break in the lid-
Fluttering,
Flowing, fucked
Wonder what I did…

-Antanya

In reflection of my frustrating morning…


Frayed Ends

I reach,
As the ends fray-
I feel the fibers slide past
My fumbling fingers
In the black-
Panicking, haunted
By the threads
I can never get back.
I still hold enough,
I tell myself-
Not lessening the lack.

~Antanya


Your Dream — bearspawprint

This is so beautiful, and resonated with me so deeply that I had to share. ❤

 

Your Dream — bearspawprint


Ethereal

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Serenity sings,
Soul’s eternal rings,
Solace, your love brings,
Kisses on ethereal wings…

~Antanya

(Image source: unknown)


Jagged

I am
Disappointing,
Frustrating,
Misleading,
Jagged,
Frail…
I am
Disappointed,
Frustrated,
Mislead,
Jagged,
Frail…
I am,
I am…

~Antanya


Widowmaker

Nearly brushing a widowmaker
With my cheek
Can’t stop the rushing shiver
When I recognize the longing to connect
Redwood splitting through sinew
Bashing, brutalizing, breaking bone
Completing the separation
Soul from body
No tether
Only freedom
Ethereal eternity…
I shiver,
Shake a little,
Remember my loved ones,
Walk home…

~Antanya


Violet Waves

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Open to the wonder
Floating smoothly on violet waves
Swim through not under
Letting my soul seek what it craves
Flowing where love grows
I seek the paths open to me
In fluid energy grace flows
Making my dreams come to be

~Antanya

Artist Credit


None of my Business

It’s none of my business,
But that is hard to remember,
When all I want to know is this,
Your love, warm and tender…

It’s none of my business,
What you think of me,
But, my heart is a mess
Of all I want, of all we could be…

It’s none of my business,
Unless it’s you, reaching too…
Burning the pain, destroying distress-
Hoping at the end, for you.

~Antanya


Illusion

Always reaching,
Never touching
Always longing,
Never holding
Bittersweet illusion,
The lie that feeds
My delusion…
Our (dis)taste for truth
Leaves me in confusion.

~Antanya


Silent

I don’t know what is worse-
Shedding silent tears
Or lending voice to the fears…
I don’t want to hurt you
Or make you ache
In this horrible way…
Your gravity grips me,
And I can’t pull away.
I’m lost and found
In those moments,
Knowing I may never be
What you need…
Knowing-
You’re everything to me.

~Antanya


Oblivion

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I think maybe
You mistake me,
Think I can’t see
Or feel you…
I may not speak,
But, I feel you
Watching me,
Chiding me,
For my silence…
Is there depth
To the dependence,
Is it addiction
To aesthetic,
Or am I the event horizon,
The point that terrifies…
The endless questions staggering,
Spiraling in and out…
Shattering in Oblivion.

~Antanya


Reality/Visualized Dreams (Wordless Wednesday)

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Did you drift with me?  ; )
Thanks for playing along…
~Antanya