Dreams & Delusions…

Archive for September, 2015

Skin Distance

Being next to you
Would never do…
You see,
Skin would separate
You from me,
Leave us apart
From who WE are…
Impossibly far.
Just enough room
For doubt,
In or out,
With or without
You…

~Antanya

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Birthday

My heart is warm
With the wonderful wishes
Of my friends and loved-ones,
I am spending my day in loving fellowship…
I’ve received many gifts,
I’m very grateful
For all the blessings in my life…

But, there is something(someone?)
I’ve never asked for
That I’ve wanted for so long,
The want of it(him) stings,
Burns deep in my core…
I can’t seem to escape it(myself),
I always want
More.

~Antanya


Why…?

It seems when I come together,
The world around me falls apart…

Why can’t I be whole
Without breaking my heart?

Why does the Universe test me
Just when I become steady?

Why must the intensity of the moment
Force me to remain dormant?

Why does anger still consume me
To the point of insanity?

Why are some people amused
With how innocents are abused?

Why does the shroud confuse me
When I finally gain clarity?

When I scream inwardly for silence,
Why am I always met with violence?

~Antanya


Twisted

I feel like I am being held
By my ankles and wrists,
Pulled tight, starting to twist…
Empathy binds my feet,
Vengeance grips my wrists.
I’m not wrung yet,
Although pain is setting in…
No tears or screams, yet…
I know there is much
Worse to come.

~Antanya


Empty Inside

Everything feels hollow.
My words fail to assemble into
Paragraphs, or even stanzas.
Tonight, I hope I can see
Your eyes shining in my dreams…

Impossible hope is my lifeline,
Never to hold or even touch…
Soul sees what heart needs,
Instead of what mind heeds…
Destiny dashed, as fate feeds.
Empty inside, more room for you…