Dreams & Delusions…

Archive for May, 2015

I Want You

I want you
To feel the poetry
In my touch…
I want you
To know why
I love you,
And exactly how much…

~Antanya


Half-Dream

Early morning
Wraps me in warmth,
Always brings my sleepy mind
Back to you, in half-consciousness-
Tell me, do you feel tangled in me?
…When I swear I feel your arms
Like sanctuary, like home
In silent acceptance…
Mutual longing.

~Antanya


Creativity (An Artist’s Pledge)

The unwavering purity
Of Mother Nature’s creativity
Inspires healthy jealousy
In my artistic soul…
I’ll never create
Anything as perfect,
Or as whole…
Pour inspiration
Into my optic nerve,
I live to create,
My master to serve.

~Antanya


~Aria~

I really love this. ❤


Intimately Close

When I am away
From the world,
I feel closer to you…
My dreams filled
With intimate touches,
Passionate kisses,
I fall into the beauty of us,
In the intensity of you…
As I wake to birdsong and sun,
I still feel the trace of your lips,
Still feel you holding me…
It makes me want to stay forever,
To dream of you, always…

~Antanya


Impossibly Near

When I go to my favorite place,
I long to touch you, see your face…
When I lay and watch twilight skies,
I ache to see the stars in your eyes…
When I start to drift in dreams and sleep,
It’s you I feel within, deliciously deep…
Warm inside, I hold you impossibly near,
Our love, stronger than any pain or fear.
I kiss you from within, hold you apart,
You hold the deepest place in my heart.

~Antanya


Flame & Tide (Heart & Mind)

I’ve been closing out
The thoughts that
Thrive on fear and doubt…

Opening my heart
Where I feel close to you,
We are never apart…

I feel you inside,
Keeping our sacred flame
Safe from the tide…

The thoughts that drag me under
Dissolve in my love for you,
And I’m left in wonder…

When I’m silent,
My need for you is
Gently violent…

~Antanya


Chills

The chills keep coming
In endless icy waves,
I never seem to decide
If this cold kills, or saves…

I shake for the warmth of you,
Your touch what I crave,
I never seem to decide
If I’m naive, or brave…

~Antanya


Always Hidden

There is a part of me
That always hides,
Feels your pull,
No matter how far,
Reaches invisibly…
The wrong people
Are always looking at me,
I only want you to see me…

~Antanya


Heart’s Hope


Rainbows edge.

Beautiful… Sad, but beautiful…

blossomsworld

A torrent of soft tears

falling from the skies.

There’s never been a day,

when I haven’t wondered why.

A rainbow on the soft white clouds,

even the universe sighs.

And as the sky clears

and the clouds wave goodbye

I wonder will I see him,

when I finally die.

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Involuntary Repression

Sometimes,
When I attempt to record my thoughts
The tinkling, jingling noise of words
Fades out to a dull thud.

Sometimes,
When I reach for the words
The shapes all run and bleed
Down the blank page in my mind.

Sometimes,
When I try to speak
The sounds get caught in my throat,
Unexpressed issues, repressed by tissue.

~Antanya


Remember This, Every Day Of Your Life.

REFLECTIONS OF A MINDFUL HEART AND SOUL

It is so easy to blame ourselves when we get disappointed by people. We accept at times that which needs to be owned by others. We do this because of low self-esteem, or we want to believe so much in someone else’s goodness that we dirty up our own image to protect what we want so much for them to be. We don’t do any one any favors when we do this. It is time to rip off all the bandages and let the truth air out into the light. It is time to recognize, who you are, with all your weaknesses and strengths, your gifts and achievements. Be proud that you are a good friend, a good mother, and a good person. You genuinely care about people. Be proud of yourself for the gifts you have given from the heart. Admire yourself for loving some with all your heart…

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Chaos of Contradictions

Wow.


Burning-Freezing, Dying-Breathing

It’s like-
Fire in my heart,
Smoke in my throat,
Needles under my skin,
Ice in my veins,
Cold air touching every inch of me…
How is it possible-
To burn while I’m freezing,
To die while I’m breathing?

~Antanya


How?

How can I ask
For what I know
I don’t deserve?

How can I express
What I know
Wouldn’t change anything?

How can I keep wanting
What I know
I’ll never have?

I don’t know how, or why, but I do.

-Oh, but, I do…

~Antanya